Vizionz started off in 2010 as a way to expel the thoughts from my mind as I made attempt #4 to establish a relationship with The Man.

Over the years its become my home for all thoughts kinky and otherwise and as some people tell me is the reason why I won’t ever jump off into the stratosphere.

8 years running it is now the documented history of my life.

It is a place I can return to and see the variations of me and compliment my growth. I can notate my static. I can see who ME is, as I share this life of mine with you. I do not plan to ever let this die. I have moments when I am unsure how to keep the lights on but I thankfully have always found a way to keep the Vizion clear.

I had a conversation with a friend about this stage of me. The point where I am specifically with intention rebuilding. It is not something I thought I would be doing at 46.

For many of us at this stage of our life, it is the point where we get to enjoy the fruits of the labors of our 20s and 30s. The point where the kids are getting close to leaving the nest. We see our credit scores finally hitting excellence and student loans looking smaller than the national debt finally. That is not my path, and while yes I am angry about it, the possibilities are still promising.

I started 2018 in crisis. I am finishing 2018 finally at a point where come payday I just might have more than the change in the coin jar to show for my work.

I still have so far to go…..so far.

I have plans for 2019 though, and I can see the path to making them happen. I will still have to make some tough choices and austerity is not done with me quite yet, but things like starting to re build a savings account are on the horizon.

I missed many of my goals for 2018. I gave up a couple of dreams. I made new ones though. I never stopped pushing forward. I didn’t die. I looked at the abyss and chose life which is something that I haven’t always done. Outside of my epic twerk contest performance it was not pretty, but I did it.

Thank you for being here, and walking this path with me. I may have to do the heavy lifting alone but I would not be strong enough without your audience.

I am back Constant Reader. I am staying Constant Reader. I love you, and for the first time in about 4 years or so, I can say without hesitation….. I love me.

Aphrodite Brown