A couple weeks ago I had a grand vizion! I knew precisely how I was going to reinvent the wheel! Then I watched that idea roll on down the street when I was reminded of just how much shit I actually don’t know.

The idea is sound, the implementation of it, at least by me right now, not so much. I haven’t given up the dream though, it shall only be deferred. I had to admit to myself that my arrogance is a thing, and I need to figure out the difference in arrogance and confidence.

I am confident that I can create that space I saw in my vizion. It is arrogant of me to think that today is that time, perhaps also tomorrow.

One of the lessons I am learning is that it is okay to plan, it is acceptable to educate and that it is also okay to ‘fail’. Failure is not a bad thing. Failure at the core is learning that thing did not work and learning a new way to do it. New ain’t all that bad.

Choosing to be transparent here, S&S may have bloated my sense of self. I chide someone else for presenting me with competition, yet it is my consistent obliteration of them in the competition they created which got me thinking that I am ready to do some shit I am not ready to do.

There is something to be said about just doing it like Nike, but there is also proper preparation. I can jump out of an airplane with or without a chute. In each case I am jumping, the end result of both will be different depending on the altitude at the time of my jump. That vizion of mine is an important one and it should be done justice. It’s okay to plan a little and get it mostly right. I say mostly because there are factors present that I won’t be able to control, and that is a part of the planning too. The internal ME work that can understand that and when shit goes left, because it will at times, not blame and beat myself for it. Trust me I can deliver unto me a beating which would make the hardest masochist tap out.

Yes I still have a bit of pride at the growth of S&S and I am willing to take that credit, but it doesn’t mean I need to be reckless out here on these streets, not with the work I can see needs to be done and its value to the community.

So while I am reorganizing I am testing out a few other things. I think if you come to Vizionz for the kink you will like it. I think if you come for something other than the kink you will enjoy watching the creation even if the end result is not your cup of proverbial tea.

Aphrodite Brown