Every so often, a two a day is necessary.
This one is for me Constant Reader, you’re welcome along for the ride though.
Today didn’t go as planned 😂
You’d think I would get used to that by now but it still manages to surprise me. How fortunate a girl am I who lives such a life where surprises can still happen and I get to marvel at them?
I had a phone call today, and while the specifics aren’t needed one thing which was said bears repeating: I created this.
Yes, yes I did.
I took a quiet moment and allowed my heart to want what it wanted and the Universe said I got you. When I have future moments, because they will happen, it’s this blog I will return to to remind myself that which I’ve forgotten.
I laid down to take a nap today and I was interrupted. I spent the first hour of that conversation confused as fuck as to why I was listening to what I was listening to. But I created that. Ironic that on Star Wars weekend there was a disturbance in the force, but its all good.
I trust me. That is not something I can always say, but it is something that is real. I’ve gone 47 years getting shit done, and in that time I can’t say that I’ve ever done anything with the devotion and purpose I am doing this. Even my Clyde wasn’t planned. This is.
While the details and the specifics of the plan may not happen how I first saw them, I did this. On this day of Winter Solstice, the birth of the sun, I am creating all of this and I am good with it.
Sure I had a couple hours of what the fuck this afternoon, but was the plan. I’m rejecting that plan and moving forward. Even in this moment, I am never going to be the girl who lays blame. I will absolutely be the girl who shatters perceptions. I mean, I’ve always been her I just thought I wasn’t. I know that I am though. I started out with the idea that I could just satisfy a curiosity. I am ‘ending’ it with a life I’ve always thought was meant for other people and I did not deserve. As I literally sip tea and prepare to get back to work I will simply end with I got this.
Aphrodite Brown