The document asks for one page. I don’t yet know what a page looks like. I’ve struggled to put together 4 sentences at times let alone a page but here’s something.

I want to know what abundance looks like.

I’ve seen what struggle looks like. I know what loss looks like. I desire abundance. Step one is leaving for the West. I’ve wrapped my head around it happening with the promotion, and while that is still the most logical course of action, that doesn’t meant it will happen. I still believe I am the best woman for the job, that my desire and intention created this movement, but they still have not called or emailed me to say, come through Nicole. Frustrating as shit, but that doesn’t change the goal.

So I will start in Phoenix, and who knows where that will end? I am going to have a life with this man. I can trust that. I can trust him. I’m sitting in a hotel room less than 10 miles from the location where I gave my life to Grant and where Grant wrote the narrative that I couldn’t be loved, and I can’t even remember the name of the city in California any more. I know I was going to Reno, to be close, and I can no longer recall his city. Ha.

I will do… well this. It’s what I’ve done for as long as I can recall, so now is where I learn how to do it ‘professionally’. I will stand in front of a room of people and get them to accept their reality the way I was shown to accept mine.

I will be decadent. I will accelerate. I will serve. I will publish. I will stop limiting my vizion and learn to win. Then I will slay.

My monumental results are that I have completed Vizionz from the Bottom. It was always going to be the title, and will remain the title, but the conversation will be about life and death after the incident.

I have moved in with Daddy. I see us in California even though Phoenix is a possibility.

I have negotiated to get the loans out of default and I am researching the needed credits to complete my degree.

“Racket” #1 is fear. I’ve said it twice now and mean it, there is no reward, payoff for fear.

#2 is Being stubborn. The payoff is that I don’t let things go, but that is also the obstacle.

#3 Is over thinking the payoff is I don’t make false moves, but the downside is I also don’t make moves.

I trust me. I am working through trust issues, in the positive side. I confirmed the bias that I already knew and identified it as an area to work on, now. People do trust me and I work to maintain that trust.

The final game showed me to trust my first instinct. It showed me that in the absence of that I can be a savage. I knew both these things