This week I also ‘finished’ the new website. When I say finished I mean enough to announce it and post it publicly. It’s not done. There are stores and videos to do. There is marketing to do. There is always more to do. The positive is that it’s finally done, one less obstacle. I’m still kind of terrified of this new venture. I am still working on part two of the workbook. I still have to figure out what retreats look like in a post COVID world, but the website is done.

I have a couple locations I’m considering posting to, I just don’t yet know what the spark will be to getting more than 2 clients. I don’t know if there is a virtual [or in person] UPW within me, but I am proud and happy I’ve made this step.

Guy Baldwin showed his ass this week.

Some of you don’t know who that is, and being transparent you don’t need to. I mean I feel like I have to acknowledge my elders but I also have to be authentic that old gay white men aren’t my go to when it comes to understanding kink today.

Some of that is my bias against most that’s old and white. Some of it was him showing why I’ve generally had a distrust of white cis gay men. At the end of the day, no one knows about your sex life until you tell them. As a white man you get to walk through life with that privilege of being a white man and forget about the rest of us.

He suggests that those of us in kink who are not cis White men should not take exception to the problematic things we do because in kink we are ‘supposed’ to be outlaws and different. I dissent. We are supposed to be humans, and deliberately rejecting the pain of another human being because it feels good to you is not being a good human. Your mileage may vary.

The officials of the US government want to re open schools. They don’t give a shit about children learning because not all children are worth educating in their mind. This is about removing the ‘excuses’ of the parents of these children from returning to the workforce and servicing the upper part of the caste.

Kids will die, but again not all kids matter. We knew this though when a kindergarten class was mowed down by a man with an assault rifle and we did nothing.

I’ve had random bouts of exhaustion. I haven’t been able to determine if it is just no longer wanting to work for my company or my uterus or something else. I also haven’t yet found a PCP.

Speaking of the current company, they selected me for the D&I group which was created after the protests post the murder of George Floyd. If advancement in this company is going to be a thing, it springboards from this moment. I will sit at the table with the head of HR, 2 Vice Presidents and the COO. Even though what I am putting into motion will eventually take me away from the company, I still want the acknowledgment due me.

I’m facilitating 3 conversations in the next two weeks and I’m getting more familiar with the technology.

I touched on this with Shared Struggle, but the levels of vulnerability happing right now remind me that I am on the right path. I am moving ….forward.

Speaking of moving, and forward. I started the moving fund. This is happening.

California here I come.