I have a little time on my hands at the moment. Free time that is, I mean we all have time. I can’t really recall the last time I had free time. Aside from ‘vacations’ [which weren’t actually vacations more temporary rejuvenations] free time existed prior to the year 2000. Even in the years between 2014 and now free time is not really a thing. I’ve run from one crisis to another, one obstacle to another, one breakdown to another. There might be a day where I tapped out and noped it, but for the most part, no free time.

I was always looking for something, the next thing, the next job the next……

For just a moment right now? I can just exist. That won’t last super long, I have to redo the resume and refine the employment search. I have to reach out to a friend who might be a solution to a problem well problem is not accurate, more of a wrinkle in the plan.

Today though, I can just be.

It feels weird. Extra weird.

I don’t have to do anything right now except wait.

Are there concerns? sure. always.

What I know though, is one of the hardest parts is over. I made the $ happen. I would have gotten there but this expedites things. My future is no longer at some point when I figure this out, my future is now. Well when the check clears.