Plus a day, I think we had a leap year in there but the past 2 years have been kinda whack so let’s just roll with 24 months, I like even numbers anyhow.

I don’t know if I wrote about this last year, but I just scrolled back to our exchange 2 years ago. Our being me and the Daddy person, the exchange being that it was 2 years ago today that he said yes. As I read that exchange I am taken back to that room on Payson St and the apprehension in my body as I waited for an answer.

He was in the office that day, although I didn’t know that at the time. He’d had a very hard day at the Dojo the day before and was sore. It was also the initial day of the titty photos. I’ve sent him a titty photo every day we aren’t in person together. It started as a teaser, hey this is what you are missing. Now it’s as normal as brushing my teeth.

I looked at the message and realized it was typical US. The 3 sentences between the two of us set up for where we are today in the most he & I way possible. I smiled and I am still smiling. He makes me smile every day. Some days he makes me want to strangle him as well but he makes me smile.

Yes, this is the happiest I’ve ever been in a relationship. It’s the most frustrated and angry I’ve been in a relationship. It’s the most hopeful and content I’ve been in a relationship. This is what I wished for, “prayed” for a space where I can be all of me, and feel all the things. And he is with me along the way, every moment and every step.

And this time next year when it is time for #3 our celebration will be in person, finally.

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