There was not a writing group today yet I did an entry.

No writing group today and that is fine because I don’t want to spend a lot of time writing thoughts after whatever comes out on these pages.

I vented out what bothered me in an email to ____ and I am closing that chapter. 30% of 300.

Sometimes I wish for an alternate ending but if I believe the Universe doesn’t make mistakes then I have to believe this is not one.

I am going to California. I am going to have a relationship with the man I love and the woman I love. I will build a new life start a new business and live the rest of my days loving those who love me back and helping others.

There are people in my past who I wanted to be on that list, the list of those I help. If they are meant to be there the Universe will return them to me if not then I was not their road and they were not mine.

What is mine though is the life I’ve hoped for even if it hasn’t played out the way I imagined.

Along the way I’ve felt empty and in pain. Along the way I’ve given of me and not received back. Along the way I’ve learned many lessons and only request to the Universe is help me retain all of them to make future choices better.