For those of you who do not know, February 13 is Black Love Day. I don’t get super excited about most holidays, that would include Valentine’s Day. I kinda celebrate Black Love Day now that I have a Black love other than my kid and myself. The thing about the Daddy person and myself is that neither of us really do holidays so while we acknowledge Black Love Day, we don’t celebrate. No chocolates. No flowers. Sex, well we try to do that early and often.

What we do celebrate is the Vow. The commitment we agreed on when we began this connection and relationship. The Vow is commitment, commitment is total and absolute. That doesn’t mean we will not experience challenges. We will and we do and we are. We have still found a way to fall into our commitment, our vow.

While he and I are going through this moment, I reflect on the vow and my role in the vow. I explored some of that in my conversation with the ear today, but that was quite early in the morning. As the day went on it was the role, the vow which manifested and reminded me why I made him my choice.

I didn’t think that it would be simple. I underestimated how challenging it would be at times. There isn’t a day though where I am unhappy. There is not a day that I regret this.

I also spent some time, not a lot, but some time examining what I thought love was. What I have is nothing like what I thought it was, what I thought I wanted once upon a time. Funny how that works.

I now have to buckle up for part two of the arrival and getting the shingle up. What’s amazing about the Daddy is his unwavering support. A part of that love I did not know I wanted was that support. I look at the Nicole who lives now and who she used to be. I realize I will never go back to that old version of me.

This upcoming week has a lot on the plate. Hearings and interviews and travel. For him there is work and the other thing.

We are planning this week together and it is something that I frankly am still getting used to doing.

We are building new memories.

We are building our life.

I wear rings now.

I didn’t know that I wanted this but I am extremely thankful for it and will not let it go.