Hearing the voice of the little helped settle me. The email and the response required for it fueled me. Last night I slept only waking once and then being able to go right back to bed after the bathroom.

It’s clear to me that I am most comfortable at war, the cloak of it is familiar and hugs my curves.

I do not wish to live a life at war though. I actually seek peace.

As much as I’ve accomplished in the last 3 years, I still have ways to go. That is not a bad thing, but it is not the positive flex I wanted to display in the 20 days of me.

I will use the energy from the email and take it to the 31st. It’s origin might not be pure, but it can certainly assist me. After the 31st comes the first where I will take a moment to recall and then move along.

Then comes the 2nd. As I typed, she may be all those things and more at work, but to me she isn’t that. I have to preserve my safety, and I will.