It is almost comical how I can snatch a defeat from the jaws of victory. I went down a pink rabbit hole yesterday, when my attempt to handle something went awry and I woke to realize…well shit.

Jeff Bezos and his magical website suddenly had everything and it as already shipped. Fuck.

This bell can’t be un-rung at the moment so it is what it is, yet it could have been something completely different. Returns are a thing, it just moves the timeline at a moment where I did not want it moved. I managed to fix a couple errors though, and all but 150 of the electric is paid, and that is not due until the end of the month, so it’s not a complete loss. What is is though is a reminder of my need for discipline, and a reminder that no one in a cape is coming to rescue me.

I cannot figure out how to move that other number from 458 to 1000 and that is unfortunate, but I also know that things alter swiftly so I am not afraid.

Today is a DND day, one where I reset for the week. It’s also overcast here. That is just fine, I need to manage some local things.

I am about to start certification classes and I am sort of excited about that. I still need help with marketing, and I am reminded of what could have been as I type this but they chose differently, so back to figuring it out on my own. I will – it’s a habit, I just don’t have to be thrilled about it.

I’ve listened to old episodes of Da Smoke. I was trying to download and edit but I am missing a component to do it that way. I still need a microphone and docking station, but all in time. I also need to get the frame but that can wait until the end of the month if it needs to, I just really wanted to do it this week.

I am in Fairfield Thursday, and the attorney hasn’t gotten back to me, so it’s back to what I know and how I know it. I am still angry at their audacity, I am also still confident in my victory. I haven’t endured all of this for things to turn to shit today. Tomorrow is not in the cards either.

I have all the addresses compiled, all the paperwork marked.

I have time and the truth which is a winning combination.