the next 3 months are going to be hectic, but in many ways I welcome that.

Living a full life is what I wished for, and as always the universe delivers.

Certification begins in 2 weeks, and I’m a little apprehensive. I did not think I would be when the time arrived, but I am. The course is going to take longer than I planned, and for that I am annoyed. The others in the class don’t have the same sense of urgency I do, and people rarely do. I need this to walk to the next step, most of them don’t. This is entertainment for them. for me it is not.

One would think I am used to people not matching my intensity yet it almost always catches me off guard.

I always say I cannot make someone else live by my standards, but I always look through the lens of Nicole and I am built different.

I won’t be able to update the details for another month, and I should be thankful for that. It will give me the time I need to put something else in place, something else which is needed, but I still exhale and imagine….if only they matched my energy.

April also opens another chapter at work. Just when I thought things were in a groove, the table is shook. One of the fascinating things about what comes next is that I have to turn it up a notch. It will give me permission to show off some, not a bad thing, but I wonder what it will look like at the end of April. My March numbers are incredible. The best since I moved into the position. I need to carry that into April as new people enter the conversation. I got it though.

I haven’t booked my hotel yet, I think I will wait until the end of April. The new bed should get here by the end of next week. It’s the last BIG item I wanted. The apartment isn’t going to be complete, but it will finally have the large set pieces. It took longer than it would based on events, but it doesn’t matter. What matters is that it is and will be done. Shit it even might be sweeter because I did in IN SPITE of.

They tried to break me, shit in some ways they still are. Here I am though. This isn’t the song I was thinking of but it kinda fits and I like the video. Now to take some tea and lay down. I haven’t felt great today and Wednesday will be here before I know it and I need to be at 100.