This was one of the darkest moments in my life, which has had quite a few:

I remember that space I also remember my promise to myself to never return to that place again. That was from a post in 2017 and so far I’ve kept that promise.

Keeping a promise to myself is not always simple, as I wait for the portal to update I am reminded of that. It likely won’t update before 9 and by then I will be in the middle of the chaos of work but my position will afford me some time to handle it. I just wonder if handling it means what I think it means.

I slept amazing last night, for the first time in weeks. I want to keep that energy and I am fighting to maintain it. The website is updated, and there aren’t any strays I have to dodge in this moment. Today is about me, getting out of my own way and being the magnificent beast I am.

I know when I log on in 7 minutes there is a debate to be had, but what they do not know is the last time I took a debate seriously, I brought home the City Wide championship

Class is tonight and it will make for a very long day. In the long days now, I am reminded of the reward and I embrace the sacrifice because there will be little more joyous than seeing the results. Well joyous for me. Some others not so much, but that is their cross to carry.