I sit for certification in around 24 hours. Wow.
I still have work to do on the other side of things, but assuming I can get through wow.
There is a lot wrapped up in this, in me, on me.
On me.
The grind from last summer is going to pale in comparison to what comes next. In theory by December I can make the move I’ve planned. Well I have a few moves in the Q but this move involves the storefront. I can make it happen by Christmas, IF I stay on track.
I have one more big decision to make. Quite honestly, I know where I land on this, and I am trying to figure out how to escape what I said. I know the Universe will protect me from myself if needed, but yeah I want an out.
I have to imagine the stress attached, the time and I still land on it’s worth it. I have asked myself if once it is over will there be something else and I don’t have the answer to that in this moment. In some ways I am done with it, in others not so much.
Having the family here this week? Priceless, and it was the visit that has me rethinking things. Should I endure these next steps for their benefit? It would set up their future in ways I might not be able to for a couple years. Yes I am still invested and connected to their future. There are some who might doubt that, but my reality is different than their vizion.
Ironic considering the other events, but I know what I got out of this week.
Heading back to the script.
Tomorrow.