Better than going no where.

The words which closed out the show playing in my background at the moment. Better than going no where. I like that.

It’s another Saturday I have not gone to the Farmer’s Market and even though there is still time to correct that today I will not. I am going to enjoy this lazy Saturday morning before I complete the revamp I’ve been working on here. I like how it looks, and I like how it will look when I am done. Well finished this version. Are you ever really done? I don’t think so. I hope that I am not done. While I am certainly not excited about packing when it time to move on from here, I am thankful that I’ve shed some of my past to the point I can dread packing again.

When it was time to leave Manheim, or the Blue Room, or the Summer House, or Payson and even all the way up to Delancey packing was annoying but not complicated. When I leave here, it will be. For the first time in a long time I welcome that.

Train the mind. Train the Body. Trust the Process.

The beginnings of the program. I keep saying – in my inside voice – that this will be challenging but will it? I’ve done a lot, accomplished more than I imagined, attained more than others might in my same circumstance. Is this any different? After all it is not only villains who have origin stories right?

My corner of the complex is full of new faces – yes even the old Alex. It’s changed from my arrival and change after all is inevitable. My immediate neighbors above and beside are assholes. I spend a lot of time not being an asshole to them back.

The new Christmas tree arrived this week. I may take the advice of the little one from last year and elevate it. I didn’t want to last year but this year a bigger display is warranted, I am bigger.

I have enough data to pull the work trigger, but I have not yet done it. Unlike before this is much smaller and the impact will reverberate on my team. First instinct is to say fuck them kids, but I do not want to harm. Shield v Hydra and such. I know that I will do it, but I am mostly concerned with timing at this point. Could I use the influx? Always, but every source is not equally of value and we are doing value right now, and forward.

I am almost done with the series and I have some editing to do but I will likely hold the editing until tomorrow. I want today to transform and see what the new layout inspires.

I have ethics to complete as well and the bill of rights to create. I have someone willing to re-do the website and I am brought to years grateful because I can’t invent more hours of the day to complete all the things.

This is one of our last weekends at this temperature, I will eventually require a sweater when I go outside again. What I don’t require is the coat all the way in the back of my closet and well that is joyous.

I like this. Moving without the hard look over my shoulder. Bringing that back into my life? Is it worth it? That half million dollar house says yes, but I don’t have to make that decision today.