It is February 9, 2024. I woke up this morning after not sleeping next to a white woman who calls me nigger. It is a good day. Today’s entry is from the year 2018:
There was only 1 entry and after reading it ….yeah.
Let’s be clear, my future ex-husband Kevin Feige loves me. If you doubted that I don’t know why because he made Black Panther possible.
2018 seems like 100 years ago now. Where was I physically? I was in Pottstown. The year between my last entry and this was ugly in some ways. I saw Pottstown as my last shot at that which I thought I was supposed to be doing then. Turns out it was the catalyst for this moment in time. Even though I was living in Pottstown I saw Black Panther in North Philly. I went to the theater on North Broad St. I’d bought my ticket the day of release and made sure that I picked the Blackest theater possible. I had zero interest in sharing the experience with the yts. Even though I knew that I would miss out on some of the comic connections because of the crowd this love story to Blackness was worth it.
If you don’t think it was a love story to Blackness let me share one channel’s reaction to the TEASER trailer:
I don’t tend to like these, and British accents annoy the fuck outta me but this joy…..can’t resist it. This was just the teaser, not even the full trailer. The CGI wasn’t complete and it was about 45 seconds. The bass from RTJ drops and it is a wrap, you want to know more.
This was the reaction to the FULL trailer
Yeah it was a thing.
That expression of joy is how I wish I could see Black men all of the time. I know that if you follow me on other platforms you think I hate them…I do not. If it were up to me we would all be in Wakanda living happy and free.
We don’t though. Where we do live is a world – not just the US – which is cannibalized and colonized by yts. Where our connection as Black men and women is under continuous assault. Where some of us hate who we are so much AND chase proximity to power so hard that we make the specific and deliberate choice to say I love you to someone who calls us nigger.
In 2018 I had a different vizion and while it might not be possible, I can and I am changing the trajectory for some of us.
Wakanda Forever