It is February 14, 2024. I woke up this morning after not sleeping next to a white woman who calls me nigger. It is a good day. Today’s entry is from the year 2023:
This choice was a no brainer. It is the same one they printed out to try to use against me in court. They failed.
As I wrap up my Vizionz flashback of Black History Month posts like this are where I find the most pride. Not pride attributed to the situation but rather to me. Yes I am proud of myself. Even though offer #2 is still ambiguous and that requires a shift from me, proud I remain.
From the moment I crossed the Nevada/California border nothing has gone to plan. I’ve had to toss every plan made and do something else. I sit here now waiting for my new lease and enjoying the quiet before the workday. It’s great. One of the tangents with offer #2 meant I might have to move, and while I do plan on doing that in 2025 this is 2024 and I will be quite happy to just re-sign the lease and remain here until the next opportunity presents itself.
In conversations I’ve been asked why would I consider leaving when I love this place. My answer is that this is not where I rest permanently. It could have been, yet the universe has other plans for me and those plans include not sitting in this mediocre town until my last days.
My city is quite beautiful. California is quite beautiful. California is also a big motherfucking state and I can do better. This is a good start but I am meant for more. I am very much okay with leaving here and being thankful for the lessons. While this was an upgrade, I won’t ever be content with the bare minimum not even from me.
I thought I would get some things moving in March, and I will just unlikely to be that which I planned but once more I am reminded that none of the plans since creation here have gone the way I designed. So this is where I ask myself if that is the truth – and it is – what makes my exit 2025 strategy different? ME.
I am powerful and I didn’t know I needed it offer#3 dropped into my inbox 2 days ago. I can take the time and do the work and cast the spells.
I’m mentally rested at the moment but physically tired. I will not always feel like this though and once my body adjusts the to new normal I will put in more steps.
I am my ancestors dreams. I am the future ancestor who will smile on those who come after me.