I needed away from the editing for a moment but didn’t want to get up from the chair yet so here goes.
I realize as I prep for launch that I am going to have to reduce a LOT of things physically, emotionally and financially and low key that makes me nervous. I don’t know that I’ve even been thisclose before, but I know it is a little intimidating. I have practice session, lets liken it to a sound check, Saturday morning. There will be at least 4 more before August but the first one has me pulling at hair that is not on my head.
In a month I am off to Georgia and somehow that 3 day arrive teach come home thing has changed. That is not the end of the world but it means I have a lot of shit to get done before I board the plane. I have no idea how I am going to pack some of the equipment but I don’t have to make that decision today. Amen.
I got the new book up and published. I also opened up a 2nd location where I can share as downloads. With the books I am not all that worried about the $$ it is more centering my name and brand. What I was doing is working and what I am about to do should escalate the timeline.
I chuckle a little because some of this would not have happened in the fashion it did without the bad behavior of others. I am thankful, to the Universe for placing me in that space, placing me here and giving me the opportunity to flex. It was just about a year ago that thing was written and I might just pull it up before the practice on Saturday. Why? It is a reminder that I am not limited by the mediocrity of others. It is a reminder that all which ‘society’ has determined was wrong with me is why this will work.
Its been mostly quiet over there and that is welcome. I don’t want the distraction when I am so close to the proverbial finish line. WW and I were talking about the expansion and everything I will need for it. I can admit I got a little overwhelmed thinking about it. One thing down and 12 new things. Implementing those new things however means that I am living my dream. In case you didn’t know being your own boss is a motherfucker.
I had a long talk today with Clyde’s doctor. It was not a simple conversation, they rarely are but at the end of the day….I am still his momma and all roads lead here. Managing out relationship since I’ve been out here has not been simple, it wasn’t simple in PA though either so…. I am reminded though the decision I made in 2018 was the correct one as he keeps being his magnificent self.
I finally got in the astro turf and trees I have the lights and tarp. I can finally finish the patio as soon as I figure out how to penetrate concrete. I might leave that to WW, gotta make them feel useful right? I am looking forward to finishing the patio and having my ‘outside’ room to go with everything else. Once that is complete I will upgrade the mattress. I like this little apartment but I am also fully aware that I am outgrowing it. I dreamt of a 2 bedroom the other day and realized it is not out of reach. I remember that once upon a time my petty had an address in mind and I am happy to say I am beyond that. After all why would I downgrade to a unit without central heat and air? I’m better than that and I won’t allow myself to forget that fact.
Ok back to the stuffs, I don’t have a staff yet so these 10 digits will have to get it all in. I got this though.