I didn’t have a great physical health weekend and that should not be a surprise but it was. I felt like Captain Marvel then my body reminded me nope Just Nicole.

Just Nicole is still better than a fair amount of the regular population so there is a still a win here. At times the win is not obvious but it exists all the same.

We were discussing, and no I am not going to say who we comprises, one of the possible outcomes could be the final tether separated and it reminded me of the gradual erasure over the past few months. I don’t know if I wrote about that here but it was written. In reality there is only 1 item left which can solely be assigned to what once was. Everything else was upgraded or phased out or like the microwave something so odd happened I had no other option but to replace.

I sent out my ballot and because of that I am attempting to tune out the background noise. It isn’t that I don’t want to spend every hour dissecting and trying to find the solution. I am just going to hold onto my sanity and do other things, there is no shortage of things that need to happen right now. I do not understand how the race is still close but I do and that is something which could keep me up at night.

So many things could keep me awake at night other than the things which do. I can admit that sleeping is simpler at times these days but concerns still exist. Multiple.

I want October to not be ‘that’ month. The only way to adjust that is to keep moving and keep improving until it is no longer ‘that’ month. I won’t ever be able to alter the past, but I am creating new memories mostly.

I realized I don’t like sharing my bed, at least with that specific person. I should be leaning more into the good things that came out of the encounter, but I am really stuck at I don’t want to wake up with that person next to me. weird.

The one person who I do like being there when I wake up I need to spend more time with.